Tuesday, May 17, 2005
flooded
i didnt know tt i had tt much tears in me. it juz flowed lk nobody's business. i sobbed for nearly 2 hrs. n now aft coming back fr the sea, i'm still in tears. drove to the sea cos i needed the wind to blow my troubles away n the splashing of the waves against the rocks to hide my cries. at least i wont look ugly cos it's dark. ha...wat a vainpot still. but tonight, there's neither strong wind nor waves. i could hear myself sobbing away. my cheeks were wet cos there was no wind to blow it dry. my thoughts still linger, refused to go away. everytime i think of it, my cheeks became wet n my nose was blocked. it took me some time to clear it but aft clearing it, it soon became blocked. for tt 2 hrs, i let it all out. all tt was inside me since last tues when i heard it. i thought it's juz another tough time but apparently, it seems tougher this time. the critical issue had been brought up n discussed. some actions were taken too n i know i was affected somehow or rather to a large extent emotionally. the many crying myself to slp nites but opened my eyes to realise tt i haven slept long b4 i wake up again to the same starless nite. staring at the hp beside my bed. tt's the hope i'm living by everyday. no one knows for how long this hope will stay. some day it'll be gone n i'm all alone again...
SOLITUDE
--- There is only one happiness in life,
to love and be loved ---
12:53 am
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